iz kinda true : )

You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

i m homer simpson?

You Are Homer Simpson

You're just an ordinary, all-American working Joe... With a special fondness for pork rinds and donuts. You will be remembered for: your little "isms" and philosophies on life Your life philosophy: "Weaseling out of things is important to learn. It's what separates us from the animals ... except the weasel."

The Simpsons Personality Test

another love test

Your Heart Is Orange

Love equals unbridled happiness for you. You enjoy the wild ride of falling in love. And while the ride is fun for a while, you always get off once the thrill is gone. Your flirting style: Hyper Your lucky first date: Anything you need your passport for! Your dream lover: Is both daring and well grounded What you bring to relationships: Energy

What Color Heart Do You Have?

love quiz

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

short quiz

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

flirt quiz

i swear dis is so inaccurate

You Are a Super Flirt

You love to flirt, so much so that it gets you in trouble. In almost any situation, you find yourself flirting - even when it's inappropriate. You tend to embrace all flirting styles too.. from coy to sexy to playful to serious. And if someone flirts back, you'll crank it up even more!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

quiz

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth. You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around. You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Dishonesty and lies

It's pretty funny how some ppl finally realized that I can be very dishonest and deceitful because I've always known that's in me (yes even wen i was a teeney weeney baby that faced d world wif a drooly smile). My question is who are they to judge me? My lies are not dere to hurt anyone and if they ever did, I neva meant to. As if those very people who labels others for being dishonest has never lied before? At least I am honest about my dishonesty, pfftt how ironic. The fact is I don't lie because I want to but yes in a very selfish sense, I do it to protect myself (and sometimes, others). Perhaps my dishonesty have hurt other people and for that I am very sorry but I only lie wen i m provoked, not that it always justifies what I have done but at least I think it's understandable. For those people who labels others for being immoral because they noe others have lied bout certain things, well open ur eyes miss or mr moral highground, life is not always linear, there is also the colour grey. I mean half of those people just fully bitch about others behind their backs while acting nice to them on the outside, ladies and gentleman, that's called deceit. Before judging someone, take a look at your own flaws first. By the way, Confucius said dat too but in complex Ancient Chinese.

Well back to my talking about my selfish ways, I must admit I am not always sorry about my lies and dishonesty because sometimes I just see it as the other person provoking me so much that I don't have a choice. I guess I need to open my eyes as well because there are always choices and the good people would make those right choices. However, the fact is I am not always a good person and if you are, that's pretty boring but congratulations. Sometimes, it's just really hard to tell wat is right from wat is wrong or wen u r under the influence of much negative emotions, ur rationality would definitely be absent.I sound like I am excusing myself and perhaps, that is one of my motives but I feel like I am a happier person now than who I was. Let me introduce you to the old me who cared alot about how others perceived me and had this solid self-discipline on myself where I would punish myself so much for being dishonest or just doing something wrong. Over the years, I've learnt 'y the hell does it matter wat others think', if they are mot close to me, they don't even noe me so who are they to judge me. And with self-discipline, it practically all gone but dis is one thing that I learnt that I cannot survive completely without, I just need a balance. If someone is so sensitive and cautious of every mistake they make and punish themselves harshly for that, he/she will have a very tough life ahead of dem and day will just end up seeing themselves as failures.

So my fellow people who live on the same planet as me, strive to b good but acknowledge dat u r bad, very very bad. (nudge nudge)

And for u moral snobs out dere, get off ur pedestal because a completely moral person does not judge but help others out.

Dont you love the HSC

YEAH! my half-yrlys are nearly done, 3 more to go woooo hooooo! I've been a bum and depressed about my half-yrlys lately but you know what? no more. Life is only beginning, I am onli seventeen, why should I frown upon life wen my face doesnt deserve any wrinkles. So my darling fwends out there who will be reading my blog, relax, chill; life is full of bumps, that's what makes the ride so full of diversity.

the hsc is not the end, it is onli the first phrasing of your music

Are you ok

How long has it been that my parents hav asked me this? It's been too long. For so many days this week, I am confronted with my parents' accusations that I don't care about their well-being anymore and that I never imagine their position, never imagine anything besides my own self. I was delusional. I thought I could really avoid this confrontation for maybe till a time that I have grown older and wiser.The irony is how can someone possibly grow wiser if they do not confront with their own flaws?
Nonetheless, the fact is I cannot handle this confrontation, I cannot admit this underlying alienness that I have felt with my parents for so long, almost too long for me to remember. A person must be very cold-hearted not to feel close to the people who are probably the only ones to give him/her unconditional love. Am I cold-blooded then? I would hate to be.
I don't know how to mend this relationship, I realli don't. I want to care, I swear I do but it's so so hard. Things have happened in my family and I realli do want to just forgive, all I want is to forgive but my heart and maybe an underlying hate won't let me, it won't let me. That's what good people do, they forgive but I've tried and tried and now, the illusion that I have forgave is finally showing me the cruel reality - I am still holding a burden of grudges, trapped in the unsettling sesaw of love and hate. I cannot handle this. I simply cannot.
You don't know how hard it is to love and care for someone with this background of uncontrollable anger. Why does good always triumph in movies? It simply doesnt exist in my life right now. I refused this anger and pain to dictate me but it just drifts back and haunts me, now I am left on this directionless swing that does not swing backwards and forwards but rather, clockwise going on and on. I fail to show I care because I simply cant erase my memories, oh no I can't.
And how many times hav they asked me about my well-being, no not my study, not my work, not my piano but me? The answer purely shows the irony in their accusation. Maybe I fail to care because they took love for granted, thinking that after they abused it, everything would still be ok. It's not.

Operation 'mary is desperate'

Due to the overwhelming response of my last blog, i figured why not continue this discussion of my dilema that hasnt quite developed yet. May I point out that this guy in my tutor, as much as i lyke him, i havent talked 2 him yet - nope, not even a hello. May i emphasise, this blog is to help me scheme a way to get to know this guy and 'steal' him away from his gf (which i m not actualli quite so sure nemore that he has one). So i guess the first step for me to 'steal' him from his gf is by talking to him. But then wat? The first step doesnt take a genius to figure out but wat on earth do I talk about? everyone tells me to talk to him! no1 tells me wat to talk about and plus, my mind freezes when I am in front of the guy i lyke - it happens every god damn time! so yes i m pleading, begging, threatening, wateva for your help, anyone, someone?

God save me, I am transcending myself into one of those annoying teenagers with a lack of trouble so they make one, preoccupying themselves with something called 'relationships'. This topic as most of you many know is totally out of my comprehension not only because I've never realli concerned myself with this alien area but also, I just lack in romantic ideas overall. I can recognize wen something is romantic and I would go 'oh dats sweet' when one of my fwends got smothered with love by their boyfwends but i dunno, i cant quite that concept personally. Say for example, roses, girls seemed 2 luv it wen they get it on valentines day but i would perceive that as pointless because roses die (unless someone gave it 2 me with lyke a pot and soil). Anyway, begone my blabbing. My point is I realli do think that I appear lyke a love skeptic because I am unable to get a boyfriend, but my question is whether I would differ in opinion if I do hav a boyfriend. Would my belief of "you can love someone forever but u cant be in luv foreva" be any different if I were to hav a love life of my own? i m still blabbing, this is a good time to retreat.

so i lyke dis guy from tutor. i always seem 2 hav dis fing 4 d intangible; the more i cant hav it, d more i want it. it didnt start off lyke dat, i was onli interested but then, i found out he has a gf and ova d past few days, i've been obsessively finking bout dis specific question - is it immoral to steal a stranger's bf? i noe dat if d girl is my fwend, then i wont even fink bout her bf but dis is different, dis is a stranger's bf, iz less personal if i cause her ne harm. obviously, i m not a person wif a moral high ground, n being an only child for 12 yrs has made me very selfish. For me,stealing a stranger's boyfriend is not exactly that bad of a fing because I dunno dat victim, therefore, i feel no responsibility or guilt for her pain watsoeva. However, i guess if it is a friend's bf, iz very different coz the victim is ur friend, that bond would cause a strong sense of guilt and without a doubt, if u and the victim would b unhappy, then wats the point in stealing her bf. Wat bout stealing sum1's husband? how is dat different? is it because marriage is such a sacred fing? At the same time, how is it different from a normal bf/gf relationship or unmarried homosexual relationship 4 dat matter? However, wat i m certain of is dat i cant steal sum1's huband if they r lyke married wif kids - coz i just luv children, and children r so innocent n deserve 2 b protected and the guilt of tainting that innocence would prolly b so great that i cannot live wif it. so yes, the question is - is it immoral 2 steal a strangers's bf?

life as procastination

in my hours of procastination, i visited my fwends' blogs and i guess, got some sneak peeks of their lifes. When i hear ppl say 'every1 is so unique', i used to think iz so cliche but now getting these little insights into my fwends' lifes, i think i've been too confident in my judgment.

Everyone's feelings, thoughts, events in their lifes...iz all so overwhelming and many times, i feel lyke i m missing out so much in life, but in reflection, i guess my life experiences can be pretty entertaining in someone else's perspective.

How to describe myself? how to understand myself? the list would neva end because how do you describe every dimension of a person in words and do u truly noe every dimension of that person? How does one come to understand oneself - i m one of the queens of self-embarrassment n u would fink i m used to it by now, yet dere r moments in which the dese embarrassments can suprise me.

i have dreams. in the midst of chasing after my own dreams, i seemed to have forgotten dat other people have dese strong and ambitious dreams as well. I strive and others strive with me - in the last year of our high skool, most of us do aim to get a high uai. The trick is not to fink of it as a doom if you dont get ur desired mark - uai is onli a shortcut - dere are always more than one way to get to a certain destination...over hills, oceans and jungle.. uai is like a flat road - the easy way out. but if u dont get the easy path - it doesnt matter - dere are other way... they are just a bit more difficult and require a bit more patience and at dis point, my darling fwends is when most of us fail, the ability to endure. I see that all of you have this undeniable and irreplaceable talents but the fact is not how great your talents are but how determine you are to display them and improve them despite obstacles and criticism.